luciddreamer: December 2010

I can't let you out of sight.

ughhhhh, I don't know what to do with you.

I'm afraid I was mistaken. I fooled myself into beliving that he found me when I was lost. I thought the lonliness and utter despair would loosen its tight hold on me if I found someone new. I thought someone better could fill the enormous void inside my chest. But I was wrong. It was you I wanted all along.

It would be nice if for one day I wouldn't think about you, or miss you, or love you.

Nothing is simple anymore.

As winter fades and spring creeps in, so will strong memories of you. I miss the spring. I miss the crisp smell and the clear blue skies. I miss the heavy downpours and the evenings spent with you. I miss the comfort of your arms around me. I miss the way you kissed my lips and told me that you love me. I miss the way you played with my hair and said I was beautiful. I miss the simplicity, just me and you together. Oblivious to our surroundings, we were so in love, so alive. With every touch I fell into a deeper love with you. I truly believed that we would be together forever. So naive, yet so powerful. I gave everything to you, my heart was invested. Why did you have to go? Now you're just a bittersweet memory to me. It's unfortunate, because that's all we'll ever be.

So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

I could care less. That may be heartless but it's the truth. My heart is too dead to care.

You made me cry, you told me lies
But I can't stand to say goodbye
Mama, I'm comin home
I could be right, I could be wrong
It hurts so bad it's been so long
Mama, I'm comin home

The second you let it become a part of you,
you'll never forget it, no matter what you do.
You lost it all, still wanting some more.

I'm afraid that I'm going to break your heart.

Never knew what love was
Until you came around

...
Never thought I was crazy
Until you came around

There goes my life, passing by...

Fates colliding
Love undying
Like the rising tide
Beating hearts grow but never die

How many hearts will die tonight?

So baby, I took a little too much,
maybe you sucked the life right out of me.
I should have let you know I never meant to go.
Sure I lost my mind, but I never really meant to die.

I want to cry and I don't know why.

Don't listen to yourself, you are your own worst enemy.

You're almost fully erased.

How often do we only think of ourselves?

Waiting to live, waiting to die.

Break away from everybody. Break away from everything.

I keep wondering what the hell you did to make me fall so hard. It didn't take much.

WE DIDN'T START THE FIRE, IT WAS ALWAYS BURNING SINCE THE WORLD'S BEEN TURNING.

This is a call of arms to live and love and sleep together
We could flood the streets with love or light or heat whatever
Lock the parents out, cut a rug, twist and shout
Wave your hands
Make it rain
For stars will rise again

I just jizzed a little.

Please don't let me fall if you don't plan on catching me.

This was my first love
He was the first to go
And when he left me for you
I was the last to know

Betrayed, disgraced
You've been erased
So long, so long
I have erased you
So long, so long
I've wanted to waste you
So long, so long
I have erased you
I have escaped
The bitter taste of you

Somehow I found a way to get lost in you, let me inside, let me get close to you.

This time baby, I'll be bulletproof

Maybe I know deep in my soul that love never lasts.

Living in a shell
With no soul
Since you've gone away
Living in a world so cold
Counting the days
Since you've gone away

Do you ever feel me
Do you ever look
Deep down inside
Staring at yourself
Paralyzed